Diary of Being a Writer; Week 38

Doing NaNoWriMo the Rebel way means I may not have a novel but I might just make the word count.

Monday 19th November
This morning I made the mistake of opening social media pages before opening this document. So it wasn’t sitting there quietly reminding me why I am here at his computer. Instead, an hour has passed, and although I have more idea about what is going on in the world I have also not written a word. I know I had a plan about what I was going to write today, but it has completely escaped me. Once again I sit here typing this diary and feeling the looming lack of words combined with an excessive sense of my inability to make things up washing over me.
Finally, I am at least I am in this document, reminding myself why I am here and while I am typing, I am trying to formulate a plan. It doesn’t have to be a good one. Just a vague idea of what I will be writing today would be great. If I could also dispell all the thoughts of all the people who can pump out lots of words and make a legitimate living from doing this and if I could try not to compare my self with them, that would be great.
I know I am learning and I know this takes time and I know I may never earn money from a novel. But I would also like to go on a holiday. To be able to visit Melbourne, to go to New Zealand maybe. These are things I may not be able…