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Diary of Being a Writer; Week 44
Reflections on a New Year.
Wednesday 2nd of January 2019
I thought about trying not to take a break over Christmas/New year. I was worried about losing momentum. In the end, I decided to be okay with it.
And it was a nice break. I sewed, made things from clay, I gardened, and I read. I also watched some good movies and some terrible movies. Lots were Christmas themed, from Krampus to Pride, Prejudice and Mistletoe.
But this morning I am back at my computer, newly resolute and ready to get on with writing and editing.
I have already completed my ‘morning pages’, and my attitude toward them has changed. I am accepting them as a useful tool and not a waste of writing time. I recognised that the ‘waste of time’ attitude was my inner critic not wanting to be found out.
Dealing with my inner critic is one of the things writing the morning pages seems to be helping with. I had thought that I didn’t need to worry about my inner writing critic because I have such a strong ‘don’t be lazy, don’t fail’ critic going on that the writing one has to contend with that first to get me to stop. Instead, it is more cunning and was making me feel like the pages weren’t worth doing, that any writing I am doing is not worth doing. Instead of stopping me from writing it just prevents me from sticking to one thing, to completing anything. I have started so many books, plays, scripts, creative…
